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May 3, 2009

Going Home Again

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Home is not the place I sleep

it is the place that wakes me to my senses

Even before I land, the street lamps do an arati

in the dark cloudless skies of my Madras.

I will be within the first few to clear customs

and get out of the airport to give my mom the most non-customary hug.

We shed a few tears of happiness as my dad and I have a respectfully affectionate exchange of looks.

Then, we get to the car and I’ll say how hungry I am to eat idlis.

My mom says ‘you used to hate them during school-days,

so I’ve made phulkas and matar paneer for you.

But not to worry, I have the batter for Idli too.’

This at 3am when the whole world is sleeping.

Then I talk all the way to 7.00am,

even as my mom draws Kolam

boils the milk and makes filter coffee decoction

and my dad gets his Hindu newspaper.

I just talk and talk.

Meanwhile the milkman and the paperman have updated our housing community of my arrival and people have started coming to our house to greet me.

My dear daughter is so quiet and they take her to their house for giving sweets.

They say she is like my husband in her quietness :)

I still talk and be my own naughty self and tease them all single-handedly,

My mom feeds food in my mouth now that I am not hungry after all the love showered on me.

Then, she asks me to go lock the room and sleep.

I know if I don’t listen to her, I will be in trouble and do as she says.

As I doze off, I can hear phone ringing, my husband making sure I’ve reached home safely.

 

 

Entry to

April 30, 2009

Exercise

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The word reminds me of math

That I so dreaded

As I left school I always fretted


I will decide to take a bath

And do anything but the allotted

Somehow I always got promoted

 


Now, looking back, it was a path

I followed that gave me the heart

To choose in my life the right start

 


Because it is through mistakes you learn

How to correct the reality that is torn

Had I done my exercises on time

I might’ve have been a bigger dime

But what is life without a fall and a climb.

 

My entry to

April 22, 2009

Love

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‘Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

That is one thing I will give my all

Even if it leads to many a fall

Love can only make me tall

Those who don’t hear the call

Are nothing but small.

 

 

 

 

To know more of the quote click here


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January 11, 2009

The Other Side

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My God is right, the only One.

Why is it then I am not "better" than the sinner is?

Maybe God is testing me…

to see if I do my best,

my best to kill the sinner.

 

My government is right.

Bordering country is unbelievable.

I am patriotic and willing to give,

give my life and take that of many others,

in order to make my flag fly higher.

 

I do not believe in my self-will.

To make sure I am not confused,

I have to be the only existent.

 

 

I am wrong.

I am wrong.

All I want to do is love.

Love is God,

Love is right,

Love is being respectful, unconditionally.

 

I  may win,

I may lose,

But life is definitely a game.

A game where ends and means are not always related.

A game where outcome is unimportant.

Integrity of the players makes life valuable.

Whether I like it or not, I am in the field.

I will not devalue life, the opportunity that cannot be taken for granted..but nurtured.

 

My God is right, and the only One.

Why is it then I am not Better,

but the sinner is?

Maybe God is testing me…

to see if I do my best,

best to love and forgive.

Better yet, not to judge.

 

My government is right.

Bordering country is unbelievable.

I am patriotic and willing to give,

give  all to meet midway.

Better yet, find a way to peace and joy.

 

I do not believe in my self-will.

To make sure I am not confused,

Let me be humble,

Better yet, see the OTHER SIDE!!!

 

 

 

My Entry to this week’s  

October 7, 2008

Man’s Search For Meaning - Viktor E. Frankl

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"it did not really matter what we expected from life, but rather what life expected from us. We needed to stop asking about the meaning of life, and instead to think of ourselves as those who were questioned by life-daily and hourly. Our answer must consist , not in talk and meditation, but in right action and in right conduct. Life ultimately means taking the responsibilty to find the right answer to its problems and to fulfill the tasks which it constantly sets for each individual."

 

Viktor E Frankl is a world war 2 concentration camp survivor, psychologist by profession. This book discusses how meaning is very important to living life, especially at times when it looks like you are just waiting for a dishonorable death. The above passage says that life does not come with a meaning but we have to give life a meaning by our true actions. For the same set of factors in life, every individual will make a different meaning and this meaning can never be the same for any 2.

Sufferings are part of life. The sooner we accept it and deal with it, better our life will be. Personally I believe, it is through the hard times during sufferings that character is strongly forged.

 

Entry to      DISCOVERIES

October 4, 2008

Epilogue

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I knew her when she was more mature,

I heard from many that

she was quite short-tempered in her youth,

she used to be the tit-for-tat type.

In that case,

 it is even more amazing to imagine the personal struggle

 she must have gone through

to make herself a work of art, towards improvement.

She was love personified, ever forgiving,

sympathetic towards the cynics,

empathetic to the sufferings of the less fortunate.

She had the tenacity and persistence to follow her dreams.

Most importantly, she was able to endure when things did not go her way.

She was always there for her family and friends,

always thought of the footprints she left behind,

careful not to hurt another soul or the planet.

She was always trying to perfect herself as a fellow human.

She loved her family but often found difficulty expressing it.

She was involved in a detached way.

October 2, 2008

Beach

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Rhythmic waves rise and fall, but never spill.

Each fall followed by a taller wave which also falls.

A successful surfer is riding the highs and the lows with ease.

Oh, How I wish I knew to surf the ocean waves and days like her…

And never to lose enthusiasm for the sport, no matter what the drop is.

 

 

 

 

Entry to  REVISITATION

April 23, 2008

Late Spring

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Parties of last year’s end bring warm memories.

New year resolutions have been upheld successfully so far.

Friends have been kind enough to drag me out of career routine.

Picnics, art museums, boating, cricket, just sweet nothing hangouts…

TRULY BLESSED I AM…Thank you for sharing your lives with me.

 

Entry for: http://totallyoptionalprompts.blogspot.com/2008/04/totally-optional-prompt-is-late-spring.html

February 19, 2008

Time Travel sans regrets/expectations

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Somehow, I have learnt to accept life as it is.

And thankful too, to the past.

 

Yes, I desired to excel in school, but was lazy.

Wish I could go back to advice

But what a lot of lies

will I say to the dreamy me?

 

You have to be number 1

for life to be easy?

Nah, that is not true,

I have seen to date.

 

So, what life is, is mostly random.

Make a healthy attitude towards life.

Life could be worse than what it is today,

And remember, Happiness is a state of mind.

Just Do Your Best!!!

And prepare for worst.

 

There is no way I can travel forward in time to see

what will become of me.

There are n decisions to be made,

each with 1000 alternatives.

Then, there need to be n raised n futures to see all the possibilities.

Duh, too lazy to visit them all,

let it be…

 

All that I need is to use my pea brain

to figure what I have to do now

to have the tomorrow I want today.

 

 

My entry to http://writersisland.wordpress.com/2008/02/15/prompt-link-time-travel/

February 10, 2008

Changed!

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As I opened the window blinds,

I could hear the soft fall of pure, crisp snow.

As I walked on, it crushed.

When Sun shone on it slightly,

it became hard ice.

Later, it melted into water streams and

flowed into the nearby pond.

During summer, surface water-line decreased in the pond,

acknowledging natural water cycle.

Yes, Water, the elixir of life, keeps changing its shape and form.

Change it does.

But, WATER IT IS!!!

My friend, I hope we too change as life goes on, still retaining the inner beauty that makes us.

My entry to

http://writersisland.wordpress.com/2008/02/08/prompt-link-changed/

February 1, 2008

Magic

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What is it in us that makes us all propel forward?

 

Why do worldly attachments bring pain and sorrow as much as the comfort? CUTTING OUR HEART IN 2 AND BACK INTO PERFECT SHAPE.

 

Coming to think of it, none of us know what is going to happen tomorrow, if we are granted one.

It could be a result of all the random acts in past or just PURE MAGIC!

 

One moment we are here, next moment we are not - DISAPPEARING ACT?

Or just a TRANSFORMATION of mental attitude - rabbit to dove?

 

…only the MAGICIAN knows the answers to his TRICKS!

My entry to http://writersisland.wordpress.com/2008/02/01/prompt-link-magic/

January 28, 2008

Desire

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If there were no desires in great minds, there would be no inventions or discoveries. There will be no miracles to feel grateful for. There is no growth.

 

There is no life…!!!

 

Entry to http://writersisland.wordpress.com/2008/01/25/prompt-link-desire/

 

Alive - with a twist!

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Know not why,

but for sure alive.

What can be done while still here,

is more important than why.

So many equally wonderful options to choose from, too!

No matter what the path is,

a clear mind, and a pure heart -

filled with grace and faith,

are all that is needed

to make this life and the next - meaningful.

http://totallyoptionalprompts.blogspot.com/2008/01/totally-optional-prompt-why-youre-alive.html

Entry to http://totallyoptionalprompts.blogspot.com/2008/01/totally-optional-prompt-why-youre-alive.html

January 13, 2008

Treasure - Faith

Maa kuru dhana jana yauvana garvam

Harati nimeshaat kala sarvam

Maya-mayamidam Akhilam hitvaa

Brahma padam tvam pravisha vidhitva

-Sri Adi Sankarar

My friends and family are my biggest treasure, I have infintely re-iterated Emerson’s ‘Friends are the ornaments of a house.’

Secondly, I treasure my body and health.

But, I also COMPLETELY agree with Adi Sankarar in I should not be proud of myself due to the wealth/health/status in society I possess. All of this can be wiped away in a single second. What cannot be wiped away and will be the true treasure is our faith.

Without faith, plan, perseverence, persistence, and patience, the four virtues I believe in, will have no further progress. Also, faith acts as a glue to bring together these 4 habits, individually they are nothing more than silliness. Reverse is also true. Faith is not just a 5 letter word, to acheive it you need the 4Ps. I guess I have just discovered a spiritual theorem :)

As a kid, faith comes from outside in, parents and teachers begin to plant it in us. As we grow, we need to have faith in ourselves, and hence, stems from inside out.

 

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January 7, 2008

In the Ear…

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I close my eyes,

Breathe deeply,

Follow the inhaled air to my heart.


My heart pleads to relax…

This too will pass.


I have done my best for the day.

Now it is time to watch the paint dry.


I need to relax and let go,

Let go of fear, worry, and hatred.


I can hear the ocean waves dancing with joy.

I can hear volcanoes bursting with life,

Niagara falling great heights.

All, inside me.


My ear is telling me of the great span of time this has been happening.

I am a tiny speck in universe,

a random happening.

Too much of ego,

or any of it,

isn’t good.


Let go.

Relax….

….sleep.

 

 

 

 

 

Entry to http://totallyoptionalprompts.blogspot.com/2008/01/totally-optional-prompt-in-ear.html

Over the horizon

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Vile snake has bitten me…

 

Sailing alone

Dark wet cold nights

Glaring hot days

There is always help I could avail

If I so intended

But this is a trip I took on my whim

I cannot ask more of anyone

 

What have I got to lose?

I do not have anything

Now that I am thinking hard

I remember something I could possess

Love

Love and support for my baby I have left safely on the shore behind

 

Now, is it worth returning from this adventure?

To provide something not valued high in this world

Maybe by the recipient

Maybe not

With the love I give comes attachment to this world

I abhor the fruits of worldly attachments

 

Or, do I really?

I started this journey to find a treasure island

That I could share with my baby

I made sure she was safe

Risked my life to get treasure to her

 

Somewhere along the journey

I lost myself

Forgot the cause

Drifted away in unmapped zone

So worried of losing

I act like I am beyond worldly pleasures

 

I am not

 

I don’t want to be

 

I am going to go beyond the horizon

I am sure to find the treasure I set out to find

I will load all that I can

I will take it back to my child

And spend the rest of my life in peace.

No doubt in getting the treasure

 

Now, the question that remains is

Will she be there when I return?

 

Maybe she might have given up on me.

She could have gone her own way

Forgotten me

But, one day, I am sure

Her grace will arrive

And she will hug me with open hearts

I might be her inspiration

Or a bitter lesson

That will be answered in time

 

Decision to reach for horizon remains mine alone

 

Based on the wisdom I have been blessed with.

 

 

 

 

 Entry to writer’s island http://writersisland.wordpress.com/2008/01/05/prompt-over-the-horizon/

December 31, 2007

New Year 2008!

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Remember the first day you realized you are ‘leading’ your life? Did anything different come out of that consciousness? Did the fact your days are numbered bring any significant change? Are we too young to make notable differences in lifestyle based on impending death? If that is so, why are many worried about aging? If life is just a string of random events, why are we so emotional about every little thing that we control without looking at the bigger picture?

In the end, the very end, will I be more critical about the time and energy I spent with the people who love me or the position I retired from? By God, I hope to have sense in the new year and rest of my life, to decide the right path that will give me the satisfaction of doing things the right way (to me) and the courage and faith to follow it.

I wish peace and contentment stem from within you and give hope and faith to reach what your heart really does desire, if you can make any sense of it :)

Tons of Love!

November 21, 2007

Dream

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What I am today, is what I dreamt I wanted to be. There have been times I was pretty jobless and day-dreaming was my full-time job. I think dreaming is a precious process of focusing on self-analysis. It is the time when you are not actually BUSY with other stuff. I talk loudly when I dream, so my husband says. Now, that stops me from cheating on him, no, just kidding :)

There have been n number of times, n tending to 100, I dream something and it happens in real life and it feels like a dejavu. I don’t like to be in that kind of situations though, because I can usually predict what the outcome is going to be in real-life because I have seen it happen to the minutest details in my dreams. My Hindi teacher, Mr. Nagarajan, denied its possibility stating the fact that we all dream in Black & White. I don’t think it applies to me though, since I am divine, you know.

I believe if you want something so badly, all that you need to do is to keep dreaming about it VIGOROUSLY. Ha ha ah …now you know why I am a lazy bum :D Hey, but seriously, maybe Sir Isaac Newton was indeed dreaming in his nap below an apple tree that he was going to become a SIR , when the apple hit him and gifted his dream to come true:)

Laughs apart, dream ,dream, dream…..

dream, dream, dream

 

 

My entry to Writer’s island http://writersisland.wordpress.com/2007/11/20/writers-link-the-dream/

November 11, 2007

Friendship

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I heard in a tamil movie trailor "Love can hapen at first sight or even without seeing the other person. Friendship on the other hand, requires to see, interact, and takes quite some time to bloom." Can’t agree more. Sometimes, I do get confused between friendship and feelings of sympathy. Do any of you get into this?

Stronger friendships are the ones that withstand the test of time and life events. These are the ones that bring a smile to you when you recall the warmth shared years ago, even if that friend is not nearby. Or not even a friend anymore. I think that is also a mark of true friendship, that you love that friend of yours even if the feling is not mutual.

In a friend’s house I read this - Every friendship starts with a decision to BE a friend, not to HAVE a friend. We all know how true it is.

There is another one I absolutely adore: Friends are like good books, you don’t hold them at all times, but know where to find it when you need it. Most of my friends fall into this category. They don’t require me to call/email/chat with them often. But we know we are there for one another. As said in my previous post on Chak De, I am blessed in HR :)

 

Entry to Writer’s Island: http://writersisland.wordpress.com/2007/11/10/prompt-friendship/

November 6, 2007

Besant Nagar - Madras - India

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Hot, humid,salty

scalp that is wet and shiny

skin is glowing with the tan

body is slim due to all the running behind public bus :)

In the bus-stand,

there is a boiled peanut vendor,

you can add purply crisp pungent onions,

finely chopped red tomatoes,

green chillies and corriander for extra,

and enjoy the lengthy wait for a green bus to show.

Due to peanuts,

you tend to forgive the crowds,

and learn to wait longer, happier.

Zen-like.

I love Madras!

I miss Madras!

 

 

Entry to ‘Optional Prompts’

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November 2, 2007

Work

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Every breath taken is work done

The moment you realize it, that becomes laborious

Unaware - it brings life to you

Aware and controlled - enlightenment

Aware and uncontrolled breathing leads to stress.

Same applies to all WORK

we all do it all the time, as a mom, friend, daughter, sister.

The instant you think of it as a task

the beauty and charm goes away.

All that remains is a low-level job.

 

Entry to http://totallyoptionalprompts.blogspot.com/

October 29, 2007

Haunted

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I am possessed all the time.

Sometimes by the full moon and other times by the sliver

There have been numerous occasions when I keep staring at the beautiful from my living.

Have opened the blinds in my bedroom at night so I can look at it while all are sleeping in peace

Haunted peacefully, and it gives such a calm

Let’s me go over my blessings and discount misgivings.

Makes me take a higher ground and forgive others just so I can feel happy

This haunting moon clears my head of all disorganized thoughts

Makes my brain like a still-lotus-pond

Can’t seem to get enough of it

Staying awake all night, sometimes with caffeine and other times with a book, feeling the rays permeate me, takes me to a different place.

I am fixated on you sweet moon.

Being a Cancer no less.

I did touch your rock at NASA

Each time I think of your not so perfect but wholesomeness, I close my eyes and take a deep breath.

I have come on earth to leave,

There is just one more thing as sure; I am love-struck on you, MOON, or should I say MOON-STRUCK!!!

p.s: My better half goes as ‘Moon’ey just by chance !!!

 

 

WRITER’S LINK FROM http://writersisland.wordpress.com/

October 25, 2007

STRANGER

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PART I - ONLY non-stranger
Everyone, except for my biological mother with whom I shared everything even before I was anything, is a stranger.
PART II - Stranger as a friend
I always assume a stranger is a friend until AND unless proven otherwise. I know that is not a wise thing to do and that you have to be neutral to any beginning relation so as to safeguard yourself. I have had my fair share of losses in this process too, in terms of hurt emotions, exploits, manipulations, time, and energy.
But I cannot change my attitude, even if it does not sound ‘mature.’ 
To think of a stranger as a ‘stranger’ requires a lot impassivity which I lack immensely.
I am a person of passion, action, and energy. Although I am embarrassed to admit, I am gaining this skill slowly. Each time I lose a friend due to my/other person’s stupidity, I always go over the good times we shared. And I hope one day things will fall in place. I do the same even with the people I do not like, realizing not everyone on this planet needs to meet my requirements of being ‘good.’ I just write-off the resources wasted to life’s valuable lessons learnt.
PART III - Friend as a stranger
Sometimes when a friend turns a stranger, I gripe with it. Why, but why, Oh why? I loved her more than anything and looking at her gave me such joy. She just rejected me for my flaw, will she know I repent? Would we have been better friends in a different state of life? Will I ever know? Will we ever be back again? Will the broken china stick to make a unique masterpiece? Can we start afresh?
At the least, will she smile at me genuinely? That is all I need to know when I leave.

After this sorrow a stranger turned friend turned stranger gifted me, I see another stranger and I smile warmly. She smiles back. I jump for joy emoticon

… and I hear Celine Dion singing..

…Life will go on

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